Bye Bye, 2013!!!

Hey there. I apologize by the way. I know I've been posting pathetic stuff lately. I really am very sorry. I hope you understand though. I guess its a teen phase that I'm going through.

Years come and go. People aren't designed to remember every detail of their lives per year. And yes, I am one of those who think this sucks. I mean, I guess its nice to forget the things that you want to forget, but it would be really cool to remember just about everything, right?

This year brought a lot of the good stuff despite of all the bad stuff that it brought  along with all those -good stuff. On the bright side, this year I learned so much. With the help of my friend Kath, I learned how to play the volleyball. I still remember how I struggled to learn but it was worth it. I won't ever forget how she named me the "moon player" in the team. Well, I improved a lot according to her. In either ways, I hope she knows how grateful I am that she taught me how to play. With Faith, my other friend, I learned how to dance. It also helped that I started to dance last summer, this happened as I helped in our church's Vacation Bible School. They needed back up dancers and I landed the job. I would love to put up all my 'learnings' this year but I'm afraid I'd bore you into details. :))

The bad stuff also happened. Unfortunately, I still am hanging by a thread in my Math subject. I don't blame my teacher. I mean if anything, she's nothing but a big help with all the troubles I'm having. I'm striving hard to get my average to meet the standards. Not to brag but, I'm doing pretty well with all my other subjects except Math. Well, I hope I pass because I think that I really deserve it. I worked really hard. Also, that includes fighting off the urge of giving up and sleepless nights of studying all the needed formulas and practicing online just to have a fair score in quizzes. The last part didn't pay off though. I hardly passed any quiz.

In a nutshell, this is a fair year. The only thing is that I didn't get a hang of my spending habit yet. Right now, I only have a few bucks left. Its not that I'd starve or anything, its just I find it really hard to go somewhere and not buy something. I hate to admit, but buying books using my allowance really made a hole in my wallet. Recently, I bought all the five books in the The Mortal Instruments Series. I started reading it 22nd of December and finished it by today. It was worth reading and I will read it again in summer although it made me spend my January allowance leaving only a few bucks. Whether it be nice pens or notebooks or books or some vintage stuff or any guitar accessory, that's when I can't resist to spend. Well, I hope I could get rid of my spending habit this coming year.

Good and bad things happen every year. What I learned is that God does everything for a reason. With everything that I've been through this year, I thank Father for always being there to listen and help me. He never failed to show me the way to find Light even through the darkest of times. Thank You, Lord.

That's it, I guess. Bye bye, 2013!

That Photo.

I don't like hurting myself. But I found myself looking at that photo over and over again. You were with her. And, that photo made me realize how we just couldn't be.

Its sad, isn't it? Liking someone who won't ever like you back. I know I've been wasting my time daydreaming that in some way we could. But now, I had concluded the answer. That is impossible. In another time, in another place, maybe it will. Just maybe.

However, its so ironic how when I wanted to see you, I don't see you. Now that I don't want to see you, I always do.

I Walked Away.

These are the reasons why I walked away.

Dear person-who-I-actually-liked-but-I-caused-you-pain,

When I told you that, I was telling the truth. I was feeling the same way. At that time, I was sure of what I felt. But then, life happened. My feelings changed. And, I'm sorry for hurting you. I want you to know that that is one thing I swear I never wanted to do. But despite all that, I did anyway. And, I am really sorry.

Thank you for forgiving me for all I've done to you. Up to this time, I still feel the guilt pounding on me. Until now, I haven't told you the truth. My reason is that, I don't want you to have false hope. I don't want to hurt you again. This is because I know how it feels like to be hurt. I know how it feels like to like someone who doesn't like you back. But, you're wrong. I liked you too. I just didn't want our friendship to be ruined. I was selfish enough to want to hurt you so that I could keep you.

I am grateful for you. I won't forget how you smiled in that photo. I won't forget how you carried my stuff. I won't forget how you made me feel wanted. I won't forget how you were my source of happiness when were 12. I won't forget how you took care of me when I was sick. Lastly, I won't forget how you carried me on your back even when I was heavy. 

Lots of love, 

Me. 

How Could I Not Fall For You.

How could I not fall for you
When you've fallen for me

How could I not see through
When you're right in front of me

How could I not treasure you
When I know you care for me

How could I be blinded
When you were the sunshine who gave me the reason to smile

How could I ever forgive myself for what I've done to you
When I always hurt you though I never wanted to

How could I not fall for you
When you've given me all the reasons to like you too

Sadly, I Will Never Be.

Sadly, I will never be your Gwen Stacy
All I ever was, was a passerby

Sadly, I will never be the one to pour you coffee
All I ever was, was an acquaintance

Sadly, we can never be meant to be
All I ever was, was the lonesome girl in the movies

Sadly, I will never be the one to sing you to sleep
All I ever was, was the one who wanted you to be happy

Sadly, I will never be your queen
All I ever was, was a damsel in distress

Sadly, I will never be the one for you
All I ever was, was an ordinary hue

Sadly, I will never be the one to see the stars with you
All I ever was, was the one who longed for you

Sadly, I will never be the one to share memories with you
All I ever was, was the one not meant for you

How I Never Wanted To Give Up

I never meant to feel dumb
I never meant to fail
I never meant to cause you disappointment
I never meant to make you sad

All the choices I made, I wasn't being careful
I try to, Heaven knows I did
I did the best I could
But as you see, it's never enough

Expectations I had for myself were achievable
You never expected something from me
But I wanted to reward you in that way
I wanted to make you proud

All I was as a kid was a smart one, you could tell
Now I am a bit grown up, I am not so sure
I want to prove myself
I want to be happy again

But how could I be happy
This world is tearing me down
I stumble and I fell over and over
I just want it to end.

Those Days And Nights I Felt Infinite.

We rode a boat amidst the dark night. The core of stars above covered us with warmth against the cold wind. The trees, on the other hand, swayed and gave off a happy vibe. I sat there on the boat feeling the night. I felt so infinite as my hair flowed in the night. The wind brushed off my shoulders and it felt great. I hear a laughter. That laughter which I can't seem to get off my mind. As we reach our destination for the night, I see a light. That light signaled our entrance. That light gave me a hope. A hope of a new beginning, brewing like a hot coffee against a cold, stormy night.

That day started out great. I woke up with a smile on my face, the usual. I see the sun rising and it felt great to watch it for a while. I praise God who created such magnificent things. It made me feel so infinite. I thought to myself, " How could I not be thankful for everything?" and "How could bad things make me hate the world in a way?" Looking at the beautiful scene right outside of my yellow-painted room's window, I realized that I should be happy. That I could be happy. I promised that to myself.

Something I've Held Onto For A While.

Philippians 4:13 says, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." This is one of my favorite verses. Thus, this is the verse that I hold onto for a while.

I have a lot of things that I want to do. I want to chase after my dreams. Although, as of now, I am encountering problems (mostly in Math) and I feel like my chances are fading. I've tried so hard but it just won't work. I've done so much work. I've spent hours studying it. The results, however are not so good at all. This discourages me. I know that its my fault for being overly careless but still how could this be? I thought to myself, "How could this be in God's plan?" and "Why am I keep on failing?". I just don't understand. Because of my low grade in Math, my average is pulled down. Its like everything I've worked hard for didn't even matter. It just hurts.

I believe that He answered it by the said verse. Whenever I think of negative stuff, it just goes off in my mind. It steadies my fragile human heart. The heart scares easily. In the back of my mind, I know that worrying won't have good effects on me. It will take action for something to change.

Folks, if you are going through something hard right now, hold onto this verse or any verse that you want.
Hold onto God who has plans for you. Hold onto Him during the happy times and the sad ones. Tell Him your thoughts. Thank Him for this wonderful life He has given you. Hold onto Him.

I hope that I won't give up. There are a lot of instances where I felt like giving up, but something in me just wants to keep on going. I don't know but despite all the bad stuff, I feel happy. I feel lighter.

Whatever it is that will happen, I hope that I'll be able to accept it. Whether it be good or bad, I just have to remind myself that God has a plan. Whatever it is, I know that at the end of the day,  God's plan will suit me perfectly.

Endless Thoughts.

Apart from my over thinking, I guess everything has changed a lot. These days, I felt lighter and free. I don't know if it's because of me letting go of the things that blinded me before. I have a problem of putting colors to things that make them special. But then, something opened my eyes to a whole new world. A whole new world where I was loved and I was free of the burden that I use to carry. 

I used to envy people who have things that I don't have. It was never about the material things, that was for sure. I envy them. I envy how they can defend themselves with words and physically. Instead, I was the one who had endless words on my mind. Mostly, I hid them. Although they don't appear as that, I do.

Whenever I was silent or anything, people would think that I am sad or disappointed. Truth is, I'm not. At some instances, maybe I was, but mostly its because I am currently thinking about something. I think of all the things that hurt me, makes me happy, or just anything under the sun.

It's so funny how it seemed only yesterday that I thought of that. I thought of running along the beach with you. I thought of us studying together. I thought of us enjoying the long ride ahead, singing to an old mix tape that you made for me. I thought of us staying up all night just talking over the phone. I thought of us going back to the orphanage to visit the kids. 

It's so funny how now all I think about is almost everything except you. You. The last thing on my mind. It's funny when I used to think of all those movie-like moments that we shared. 

Now I know that it's true what they said. Feelings do change like the weather. 

The world shifted. The wind lifted. 

And Its Sad When You Know It's Your Heart You Can't Trust.

Today, this particular line of that song got stuck in my head. I can't get rid of it. I knew then that I would just have to blog about it.

Heart. It pumps out the blood so that the blood can distribute nutrients needed by our body. That's the meaning scientifically, as I remembered. What is it really?

For someone like me, its something that's very ironic, especially with the brain. The brain tells you this and that, the heart neglects it. Most of the time, that is. Its so hard to do something that's against either of it.

As the title says, its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust. When you feel something that you just don't understand, you just need an assurance so that you can trust it. Sometimes, even when you don't trust it to do so, it just does. That feeling of innocence and yet in the back of your mind you yourself was aware of the truth.

Its all in front of me, I see it. But, how come I can't stop hoping? How come I can't just stop hoping that you were feeling that for me too?  

Well, enough of me being pathetic over stuff.

Take Me Back To That Time.

I want to go back to that time when all I ever worried about was the pouring rain.

When I was younger, I always said that I wanted to be older. Now that I am older, I want to be younger.

I realized a lot of things while I was growing up. 

It's funny that when I think back to where I was a couple years back, I'd always remember those picture perfect memories of a carefree, laughing child version of me. I guess it was when everything was at the right place. I'll always remember the time when the only books  I read were 

Charlie in the Chocolate Factory & Geronimo Stilton. That time of innocence when I always knew what to do with my life. That time when I was always sure of things. That time when trusting people wasn't such a hard thing to do. That time when I still believed in fairy tales, prince charmings, & damsels in distress. 

Now that I'm a bit older, I just don't understand why things are like that. I don't know how I have learned to fake my smiles and to mask my feelings. I don't know how I turned out to be someone who find it hard to trust people. I have always thought that people never walk away. I have always known that they were meant to stay. 

Most of the times, I thought of running away. It was just to take all the bad stuff out . I want to run away from the things that hurt me. I want to run far far away so that I won't feel it. But then, He along with various people made me want to stay. He always reminded me that I am loved and even if I fail, He'll always do. He made me feel that all my prayers are heard. That this world only holds challenges so that I would be stronger.

Now, with God I know I can do all things. While reading His Word, He answered a lot of questions. I somehow understand while all child grow up except for Peter Pan, that is. :))

The Truth Is.

I only stopped talking to you
So that I won't hope anymore
This is me accepting what is to come
Accepting that its just not meant to be

You're my friend, she is too
I don't want to be the one to
Disrupt you, that's all
Besides all I know is that you're both happy now

It may hurt
Although I don't know when
It will stop and I'll
Be amazed by someone new

The truth is I never wanted to let go of you
I never wanted to erase those moments with you
But then I never got that assurance from you
I never knew what wass true

You and me, like parallel lines
Lines that never meet
You showed signs but
You never did see me

I don't know how it came to this
I guess I was just hoping you'll
Say all those words that I long to hear
All those feelings seem to have disappeared

I never knew how you felt
With just one glance I stole
I feel a smile spreading
Even if for you I knew that it  just won't do

This never happened to me before
I guess you never really cared
For me
But you'll always be right here

I never know just what to say
Rainy days bring back those Thursdays
I shared with you and will
Forever be treasured

A lot of questions
On my mind
Were never really answered
But, honestly, its because I want to hear it from you

Did I ever cross your mind?
Or was that just me
Countless times, I thought of you
I always wished that you think of me too

I waited for you to say something
To show me that I was wrong to think that
It was her who you thought of
It was her who you feel for

But you never did say anything to me
I took it in a way that would be slow
I guess I was blinded
I knew then I needed space

Space for me so I could think
Distance maybe is all I need
I'm still thinking of you
But I'll always be guessing

You'll always be in the back of my mind
You'll always be the boy who saw me cry
I waited and I guess I still am waiting
For you to take me as me

I never would have walked away
But you never did ask me to stay
You never did say anything
You only stood there

Someday I hope I'll understand
How come you kept your mouth shut
You never made a move
And I never really knew

Do you feel for me too?
Or is there someone else for you
I am waiting for an assurance
But I guess that may never come

I needed that
I needed assurance
I needed to know
I needed the truth

Lastly, the truth is
I'm still here
I'm still waiting
Although there's nothing left for me to wait for

I want you to know that
I treasure you and all those moments
We had on Thursdays
I'll never forget

To hold on or to let go
I guess the second one suits me better
After all, all I've been through is pouring rain
I just thought you'll never give me pain

Pouring My Heart Out.

We both know our own limitations
That’s why we’re strong
Now when we spend some time apart
Wheeling each-other out of the dark,
Cause we both know
What mistake is (?)
Won’t be scared now
If I change the made-out yeah
Change the made-out
They could take us
…
Why can’t you see it?
- Colbie Caillat & Gavin DeGraw's We Both Know

That song wraps up my thoughts about this someone. Here I am, being honest with what I feel.  I don't know but somehow in some way I feel tied to you. I just can't let go. But who knows what'll tomorrow brings?

There are times when I really feel  the need to hold on. There are times when I just wish I could let go. Opposing thoughts keep bugging me. I never let any of them win. But then there's this part of me that I just can't understand.

I thought maybe I was just amazed and carried away. But little did I know there was something more. Don't worry though, I'll keep my distance. I'll be the friend that you can always count on. 

You'll be that friend whose always there for me when I'm sad. That friend who supports me in my endeavors.

You'll always be my friend. No matter what happens, I won't let this thing destroy what we have now. =) 

Lastly,
I'm happy and contented with whatever we have now. 

That Wildflower Out Somewhere.

I love the day when we found out that we share a lot of similarities. That day, when we sang our hearts out because of things that complicate our lives as of the moment. And a lot of memories that are still clear in my mind. I miss those good old days that we shared.

Whatever happened to the closeness that we have, I don't how it came to this . I don't even know now if you are true. There are times when you would look at me and tell me something and end with a never mind. You're hiding. I don't know why. Its not even necessary since I'm open to you.

I pretended at those instances when you would tell me things that I don't want to hear. I listened and I masked my feelings. I know how you feel. But, is this the way that you would deal with this? Would you let our friendship be torned by your unchanging heart?

Wildflower

A word for that distant wildflower

Don't let your insecurities swallow you

Don't let you feelings mislead you

Don't fight with the free wind

Without it, there won't be you

This Is What I Wrote.

As I've said in my previous posts and poems, last summer was nice. I found missing parts of the puzzles that I'm trying to build.  If I was to give a title to it, it would be "Search". Haha. I sort of know that its cliche to say that you found yourself at such a young age. But I didn't, really. I guess I found bits of who I want to be. And so I found this poem that I wrote and remembered again why I set such goals for myself. Here it goes.

Real

And then she said it

I realized my life isn't perfect anymore

I don't get the simplest happiness

Just the tearing pain of being alone and abandoned

That's what I realized

I glanced upon what's in front of me

I realized that maybe my life was destined to be this

Realizing that, I confided all my blurry thoughts

It all came to one conclusion

I have found contentment in my fragile human heart.

This Summer Made Me More.....Creative.

So, I don't know what to say. Really. I guess my boredom led to something positive and creative. I guess.
To be frank, this thing I made is the most creative thing I've done ever in my existence. And, I would like to share to you what I have made. :)

I know its not much but I'm proud that I made it. :)

There you go, folks. :D

Summer 2013.

To be frank, I didn't spend my summer the way I was planning before it was summer. But, I guess I've been productive enough to do things that I've never done before. :) Although, nothing much has changed. I admit that the first few weeks of summer went alright. Now that its about to end, I realize just how much important it is to spend it wisely doing the things that you want to do. And that to waste it would be the most stupid thing.
Well, I guess you can't blame yourself forever. I still have time though. But still I'm sure my summer didn't go to a waste. Here are the things that I've done to keep my summer busy and at the same time fun! After all, that's what summer is all about.

This summer was not the best of all summers. I didn't take vacation out of town or go to some fancy place. I didn't take advance classes like I used to. In short, I stayed at home and went out on Sundays. This made me bored. But it also made me do things that don't require going out.

First, I developed my cooking ability. I can cook now even without the help of my mom. I can cook on my own. Yippee! Now, all I'm doing is trying to remember recipes. This is a must. :)

Second, I learned the ukulele. The first song that I ever played in my ukulele days is the wonderful song by the Beatles, Let It Be. The Beatles is my dad's fave band of all time. So I guess I sort of grew up hearing it. Let It Be is definitely one of my faves too. :)

Third, I have decided to improve my guitar skills. I wanted to play more complicated songs. :) That's just it.

Fourth, I discovered a darker side of my poetry. I don't know but almost all of the poems I wrote this summer is a bit depressing.

Fifth, I re-read my old books since I didn't buy new ones (though I really want to). And I found out that re-reading it makes it more sentimental to readers like me. I may have understood it better now.

Sixth, I start my day with reading the Word of God. I try to read it everyday. I guess my faith grew too.

Seventh, I wake up early everyday. :)

Everything in Black & White.

It's not really everything. Its just that it seems to be. Sometimes, I feel like I carry the weight of the world. But its only because of the problems I face daily. I feel guilty knowing that a billion more people out there face more serious problems than I do. I don't know, really. I guess, its just a part of the human nature. And hey, you might think that I am an emo due to my recent posts, but I'm not. Although, I am also not saying that its a bad thing. Its just that I feel said because of the nothingness & emptiness feeling I feel these past few days. If you get to meet me in person, you'll see that I am actually a cheery one. :)

Here are some photos I took way back.

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Getting To Know Him.

He's always there for us. Whether its a good or bad situation, He's there. He gave us this life and made a plan for us. As for me, He's the one and only Father & Creator of this world.

I may not have a very sad story or turning point in my life yet. But I hope that when it comes, I'll remember to think positive and let Him steady my confused human heart. I lived my life knowing Him and what He can do. He was introduced to me in a way that I'll never forget. I was a kid back then. Before I go to sleep I would kneel down and clasp my hands to pray. Then, I would recite the Lord's Prayer.

As time passes, I seem to have forgotten that prayer and started constructing my own. I grew up and didn't lose my connection with Him. Although, I didn't progress either.

I transferred to a new school. It was a Christian school. There, I was able to exercise my faith and was able to learn more about Him. After 3 years, I found my home church and went there for Sunday school. It was fun but most of all, it allowed me to view my faith in a wider perspective. Not only did I gain knowledge about God, I also gained new friends.

To be honest, I was not the one to read the Bible everyday. Although I made plans to finish reading it with understanding within a year, it didn't happen.

I still remember that Sunday when I started reading it everyday. The pastor in our church gave us a Bible reading plan. This paved ways for me to have a goal to accomplish reading it with understanding within a year. I started on April 16, 2013 and would finish on April 16, 2014.

Along with the Bible, I also read Our Daily Bread. These two books remind me of my purpose in life. It reminds me that God should be the center of my life and nothing else.

These pictures of the Bible & Our Daily Bread sort of describes what my faith used to be and what it is now.

At first, it was dimmed. I knew about Him but I didn't take time to know more about Him. Now, its burning with passion to know Him better and to be able to know what He wants me to do. :)

Under Construction.

Well, I have made a lot of changes in my blog recently. I changed its name and its look. Now, I am gonna change it again.

I am very fickle minded when it comes to this. I feel like as you grow, the things around you should grow too. I don't really know what this means but this is what came up to my mind.

So, this is it then. I'll be doing some changes.

Not A Bit.

There are times when I feel like you never existed.
There are times when I still feel that connection alive.
That night, I read through our old messages and I reminisced.
I wondered over and over.
But, I realized that for me,you're a question without an answer.
I won't forget those moments ever.
It's like the movie scene and we own it.
Lastly, I just knew that the way I felt didn't change, not a bit.

The World's Too Beautiful To Be Ignored.

Earth. It is where we -humans- live. Its is the only home that we've got. The best we could do is to take care of it. And, of course, cherish it as if we are to die tomorrow.

A lot of people take their life for granted. Most of the times, those  people die in regret of not seeing the world through better eyes. While living in this beautiful place created by God, won't you die happy if you lived life like there's no tomorrow? Like you made your only shot and it hit bull's eye?

Well, there is no guarantee that one's life is to be perfectly lived. We are humans. We are perfectly imperfect.  But, the good thing with us is that we get to live a shot at life. Not many people have that realization before it's too late. This usually comes along when all hope is gone and faded in someplace far. When dreams are shattered and there's no way out.  There's the light that shines, because deep inside that fragile human heart is a handful of hope that can't be gone just like that.

Everyday, we wake up and do our routine over and over. Don't you get tired of it? There is more to life than gadgets and work. People nowadays live their life in a blur. With them never really seeing what life is. And, that just sucks. Its very dreadful too.

Instead of sleeping in or rushing during the morning, why don't you try to sit back while drinking that hot brewed coffee (or other forms of hot beverages) and listen to the world around you? Don't you hear the sweet, sweet chirp of the birds? Or don't you feel that cold breeze on your face when you head outside? And at night, instead of watching that drama daily, why don't you take a night off and stargaze even just for a while?

These are the things that are given to us freely. It is our choice to experience it.

Today, why don't you try these things? Why don't you take a chance on things that you've never done before? Today, even just for today, try to live life as if there's no tomorrow. :)

At the end of the day, you only got God to thank for giving you your life. :D

Surprise! Surprise!

Don't you just love putting up surprises for people? The way that they would look after that -the-oh-i'm-so-grateful-for-this-day on their faces. Now, I have never been surprised before. And here I was thinking that, it is because in my family I am the one who plans the surprise so when it's my turn to be surprised, no one does it for me. It sucks, though. Knowing the fact. :(

I hope that sometime someday, people will surprise me on my birthday too. :) I want to experience that. In fact, I would love to experience that.


Well, this is it for this post. I have nothing more to say.  Good Morning! :D

Sadness, all over the place.

Have you ever felt this way before? I mean, I keep feeling sad last Monday. Just sad due to the past. Although, I tried to forget, things just keep coming back. Its hard to face situations like that. Once I see something that serves as a reminder, flashbacks just go through my mind. Well, when things like this happen, I just write. I can't just let everything hold its place there. If it gets too much, I bet I'll explode.

Here are the poems. 

*I hope that you don't feel sad or anything when you read this. This will just heavy(not sure whether this is the right word) your sadness.

Scars Made By Them

by Me :))

Deep in my heart

Are scars carved deep

Though I try to break free

I know they can't be healed easily

Right outside, the stars shine

I see them through my window

And I pray to be healed

Just then tears flow down my face

They don't see 

Only He can

They'll never know

How hurt I am that I'll blow

I avoided going to that place

But no matter what, it can't be erased

Sadness in my heart, that's what I feel

Wishing all this is just a bad dream

Lonely

by Me :))

There by the window

A weeping girl sits

With her bright eyes

That's filled with tears

"When will this end?"

She asks

No one answers

The room was vast

Her thoughts

Are scattered free

Her dreams

Are shattered on the floor

Those are the simple ones

That cannot happen

They only know the grand

That's all they know

That girl weeping

Still weeps

Trying to find a way 

To be free

In her life now

She'd never been that happy

She wants to go back

To the times when

She wasn't lonely

There you go, folks. Try to be happy while you can. Grab any opportunity. 

"Smile though your heart is breaking." That's what they say.

Wide Awake.

Morning! Its about 5:37 am and I'm wide awake. :) *This thing doesn't happen usually, that's why.

Its a Sunday morning and I just had breakfast. I was craving for oats and banana. But what I ate was noodles and bread. Along with my sisters, who ate the same thing. :D We laughed and laughed. I love times like this. Laughing because of jokes and the game that we played. We played charades by the way. :P

Well,  I got someone to thank for waking me up. Thanks, God. For giving me today. I am grateful for each and everyday of my life. :)) Though, sometimes I know it goes out of hand. With me doing things that you won't approve of. Sorry for that. 

To conclude, I am pretty much having a great day. :) Or should I say, morning?

Late Nights with My Fam. :)

If there's this one routine that I love in summer is that me and my family always have late nights together. Its when we can't sleep or we just want to go out at night. We would always go to milk tea houses, coffee shops or just drive and be out to see the city lights. I love it whenever we do it. Its sort of relaxing in a way. Though because of these, my sleeping pattern changes.


Just a thought! Hahaha. Nightie :))

So Close Yet So Far.

Have I told you that I came this close to owning a polaroid? To be honest, its not untouchable in the first place. I just had to wait for my birthday. But then, I didn't get it. :(


My dad said that he'll buy it for me. I smiled at that thought. He asked his friend first. But that's when he said he won't buy it because the film is too expensive. :(

Maybe later in life, I'll be able to get it. I'm still lucky for having a good life. I'm so fortunate. :D

So, when you don't get what you want, don't be mad. Just think that you're still fortunate to be living your life right now. Maybe its not meant to be. Or its just not what you need.  :)

Try to be contented with what you have. When you want something don't have the thinking that you'll get it with just a snap or on a blink of an eye. Instead, be patient and let it come to you. :D Work hard so that you'll achieve.

That's one thing I learned this year. :)

Time Flies.

Hey. :) I haven't blogged for so long. I actually missed it. Though, I could hardly post things because I can't think of anything to write about. :))

Let me write about time then. :) The start of summer brought me a lot of plans. I was busy for a week of volunteering at our church. I got to spend time with other people and kids. :) After that, I haven't done much. Being at home and all that, I was bored. I just organized my stuff and do random things everyday. I will be the first one to admit that I hate routines. Doing the same thing everyday makes me bored. :D To keep me entertained,  there should be something new. 

I do not wish for this to continue so I decided to make a weekly plan. It includes balancing my time doing what I want and doing what I think is worth of the time. I want to learn so much this summer. You know, improve. 

To conclude, I will say that although its very cliche and all, time flies. It flies so fast that sometimes (well, most of the times) we take it for granted. Life is a one shot thing. It is from God. All that we have to do is live it. 

Time flies. Don't take it for granted. :)