This Is What I Wrote.

As I've said in my previous posts and poems, last summer was nice. I found missing parts of the puzzles that I'm trying to build.  If I was to give a title to it, it would be "Search". Haha. I sort of know that its cliche to say that you found yourself at such a young age. But I didn't, really. I guess I found bits of who I want to be. And so I found this poem that I wrote and remembered again why I set such goals for myself. Here it goes.

Real

And then she said it

I realized my life isn't perfect anymore

I don't get the simplest happiness

Just the tearing pain of being alone and abandoned

That's what I realized

I glanced upon what's in front of me

I realized that maybe my life was destined to be this

Realizing that, I confided all my blurry thoughts

It all came to one conclusion

I have found contentment in my fragile human heart.

This Summer Made Me More.....Creative.

So, I don't know what to say. Really. I guess my boredom led to something positive and creative. I guess.
To be frank, this thing I made is the most creative thing I've done ever in my existence. And, I would like to share to you what I have made. :)

I know its not much but I'm proud that I made it. :)

There you go, folks. :D

Summer 2013.

To be frank, I didn't spend my summer the way I was planning before it was summer. But, I guess I've been productive enough to do things that I've never done before. :) Although, nothing much has changed. I admit that the first few weeks of summer went alright. Now that its about to end, I realize just how much important it is to spend it wisely doing the things that you want to do. And that to waste it would be the most stupid thing.
Well, I guess you can't blame yourself forever. I still have time though. But still I'm sure my summer didn't go to a waste. Here are the things that I've done to keep my summer busy and at the same time fun! After all, that's what summer is all about.

This summer was not the best of all summers. I didn't take vacation out of town or go to some fancy place. I didn't take advance classes like I used to. In short, I stayed at home and went out on Sundays. This made me bored. But it also made me do things that don't require going out.

First, I developed my cooking ability. I can cook now even without the help of my mom. I can cook on my own. Yippee! Now, all I'm doing is trying to remember recipes. This is a must. :)

Second, I learned the ukulele. The first song that I ever played in my ukulele days is the wonderful song by the Beatles, Let It Be. The Beatles is my dad's fave band of all time. So I guess I sort of grew up hearing it. Let It Be is definitely one of my faves too. :)

Third, I have decided to improve my guitar skills. I wanted to play more complicated songs. :) That's just it.

Fourth, I discovered a darker side of my poetry. I don't know but almost all of the poems I wrote this summer is a bit depressing.

Fifth, I re-read my old books since I didn't buy new ones (though I really want to). And I found out that re-reading it makes it more sentimental to readers like me. I may have understood it better now.

Sixth, I start my day with reading the Word of God. I try to read it everyday. I guess my faith grew too.

Seventh, I wake up early everyday. :)

Everything in Black & White.

It's not really everything. Its just that it seems to be. Sometimes, I feel like I carry the weight of the world. But its only because of the problems I face daily. I feel guilty knowing that a billion more people out there face more serious problems than I do. I don't know, really. I guess, its just a part of the human nature. And hey, you might think that I am an emo due to my recent posts, but I'm not. Although, I am also not saying that its a bad thing. Its just that I feel said because of the nothingness & emptiness feeling I feel these past few days. If you get to meet me in person, you'll see that I am actually a cheery one. :)

Here are some photos I took way back.

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Getting To Know Him.

He's always there for us. Whether its a good or bad situation, He's there. He gave us this life and made a plan for us. As for me, He's the one and only Father & Creator of this world.

I may not have a very sad story or turning point in my life yet. But I hope that when it comes, I'll remember to think positive and let Him steady my confused human heart. I lived my life knowing Him and what He can do. He was introduced to me in a way that I'll never forget. I was a kid back then. Before I go to sleep I would kneel down and clasp my hands to pray. Then, I would recite the Lord's Prayer.

As time passes, I seem to have forgotten that prayer and started constructing my own. I grew up and didn't lose my connection with Him. Although, I didn't progress either.

I transferred to a new school. It was a Christian school. There, I was able to exercise my faith and was able to learn more about Him. After 3 years, I found my home church and went there for Sunday school. It was fun but most of all, it allowed me to view my faith in a wider perspective. Not only did I gain knowledge about God, I also gained new friends.

To be honest, I was not the one to read the Bible everyday. Although I made plans to finish reading it with understanding within a year, it didn't happen.

I still remember that Sunday when I started reading it everyday. The pastor in our church gave us a Bible reading plan. This paved ways for me to have a goal to accomplish reading it with understanding within a year. I started on April 16, 2013 and would finish on April 16, 2014.

Along with the Bible, I also read Our Daily Bread. These two books remind me of my purpose in life. It reminds me that God should be the center of my life and nothing else.

These pictures of the Bible & Our Daily Bread sort of describes what my faith used to be and what it is now.

At first, it was dimmed. I knew about Him but I didn't take time to know more about Him. Now, its burning with passion to know Him better and to be able to know what He wants me to do. :)

Under Construction.

Well, I have made a lot of changes in my blog recently. I changed its name and its look. Now, I am gonna change it again.

I am very fickle minded when it comes to this. I feel like as you grow, the things around you should grow too. I don't really know what this means but this is what came up to my mind.

So, this is it then. I'll be doing some changes.

Not A Bit.

There are times when I feel like you never existed.
There are times when I still feel that connection alive.
That night, I read through our old messages and I reminisced.
I wondered over and over.
But, I realized that for me,you're a question without an answer.
I won't forget those moments ever.
It's like the movie scene and we own it.
Lastly, I just knew that the way I felt didn't change, not a bit.