How I Never Wanted To Give Up

I never meant to feel dumb
I never meant to fail
I never meant to cause you disappointment
I never meant to make you sad

All the choices I made, I wasn't being careful
I try to, Heaven knows I did
I did the best I could
But as you see, it's never enough

Expectations I had for myself were achievable
You never expected something from me
But I wanted to reward you in that way
I wanted to make you proud

All I was as a kid was a smart one, you could tell
Now I am a bit grown up, I am not so sure
I want to prove myself
I want to be happy again

But how could I be happy
This world is tearing me down
I stumble and I fell over and over
I just want it to end.