Surprise! Surprise!

Don't you just love putting up surprises for people? The way that they would look after that -the-oh-i'm-so-grateful-for-this-day on their faces. Now, I have never been surprised before. And here I was thinking that, it is because in my family I am the one who plans the surprise so when it's my turn to be surprised, no one does it for me. It sucks, though. Knowing the fact. :(

I hope that sometime someday, people will surprise me on my birthday too. :) I want to experience that. In fact, I would love to experience that.


Well, this is it for this post. I have nothing more to say.  Good Morning! :D

Sadness, all over the place.

Have you ever felt this way before? I mean, I keep feeling sad last Monday. Just sad due to the past. Although, I tried to forget, things just keep coming back. Its hard to face situations like that. Once I see something that serves as a reminder, flashbacks just go through my mind. Well, when things like this happen, I just write. I can't just let everything hold its place there. If it gets too much, I bet I'll explode.

Here are the poems. 

*I hope that you don't feel sad or anything when you read this. This will just heavy(not sure whether this is the right word) your sadness.

Scars Made By Them

by Me :))

Deep in my heart

Are scars carved deep

Though I try to break free

I know they can't be healed easily

Right outside, the stars shine

I see them through my window

And I pray to be healed

Just then tears flow down my face

They don't see 

Only He can

They'll never know

How hurt I am that I'll blow

I avoided going to that place

But no matter what, it can't be erased

Sadness in my heart, that's what I feel

Wishing all this is just a bad dream

Lonely

by Me :))

There by the window

A weeping girl sits

With her bright eyes

That's filled with tears

"When will this end?"

She asks

No one answers

The room was vast

Her thoughts

Are scattered free

Her dreams

Are shattered on the floor

Those are the simple ones

That cannot happen

They only know the grand

That's all they know

That girl weeping

Still weeps

Trying to find a way 

To be free

In her life now

She'd never been that happy

She wants to go back

To the times when

She wasn't lonely

There you go, folks. Try to be happy while you can. Grab any opportunity. 

"Smile though your heart is breaking." That's what they say.

Wide Awake.

Morning! Its about 5:37 am and I'm wide awake. :) *This thing doesn't happen usually, that's why.

Its a Sunday morning and I just had breakfast. I was craving for oats and banana. But what I ate was noodles and bread. Along with my sisters, who ate the same thing. :D We laughed and laughed. I love times like this. Laughing because of jokes and the game that we played. We played charades by the way. :P

Well,  I got someone to thank for waking me up. Thanks, God. For giving me today. I am grateful for each and everyday of my life. :)) Though, sometimes I know it goes out of hand. With me doing things that you won't approve of. Sorry for that. 

To conclude, I am pretty much having a great day. :) Or should I say, morning?

Late Nights with My Fam. :)

If there's this one routine that I love in summer is that me and my family always have late nights together. Its when we can't sleep or we just want to go out at night. We would always go to milk tea houses, coffee shops or just drive and be out to see the city lights. I love it whenever we do it. Its sort of relaxing in a way. Though because of these, my sleeping pattern changes.


Just a thought! Hahaha. Nightie :))

So Close Yet So Far.

Have I told you that I came this close to owning a polaroid? To be honest, its not untouchable in the first place. I just had to wait for my birthday. But then, I didn't get it. :(


My dad said that he'll buy it for me. I smiled at that thought. He asked his friend first. But that's when he said he won't buy it because the film is too expensive. :(

Maybe later in life, I'll be able to get it. I'm still lucky for having a good life. I'm so fortunate. :D

So, when you don't get what you want, don't be mad. Just think that you're still fortunate to be living your life right now. Maybe its not meant to be. Or its just not what you need.  :)

Try to be contented with what you have. When you want something don't have the thinking that you'll get it with just a snap or on a blink of an eye. Instead, be patient and let it come to you. :D Work hard so that you'll achieve.

That's one thing I learned this year. :)

Time Flies.

Hey. :) I haven't blogged for so long. I actually missed it. Though, I could hardly post things because I can't think of anything to write about. :))

Let me write about time then. :) The start of summer brought me a lot of plans. I was busy for a week of volunteering at our church. I got to spend time with other people and kids. :) After that, I haven't done much. Being at home and all that, I was bored. I just organized my stuff and do random things everyday. I will be the first one to admit that I hate routines. Doing the same thing everyday makes me bored. :D To keep me entertained,  there should be something new. 

I do not wish for this to continue so I decided to make a weekly plan. It includes balancing my time doing what I want and doing what I think is worth of the time. I want to learn so much this summer. You know, improve. 

To conclude, I will say that although its very cliche and all, time flies. It flies so fast that sometimes (well, most of the times) we take it for granted. Life is a one shot thing. It is from God. All that we have to do is live it. 

Time flies. Don't take it for granted. :)